Friday, March 27, 2009

Hello Spring...

I think my Spring Break started off with a Bang. Friday went to the International Secret Agents concert in San Francisco. Then went downhill with drama with my Aunt. It started to pick up again, so overall it evened out.

This break came at the best time ever. I was overwhelmed with school, graphic design and life in general. Not that i've got my shit together fully, but i can say that it's helped me come to terms with things. I've realized that Graphic Design isn't where my heart is fully at, there are so many things i wanna dive into, which is probably why i'm not motivated or driven to do well in. The whole corporate type of work is definitely not for me, i've tried it, and its not working. I really enjoy the more hands on type of stuff, and it's always what i've wanted to do to begin with. So this summer i'll probably learn silk screening, develop my plushies and possibly do some painting.

Since there's so much i want to do or even try, thats where i've always gotten lost and confused. I have too many things i want to do that it's chaos in my mind, trying to narrow everything down to one specific thing.

Some of my friends feel as though i'm no fun anymore because i've lost interest in the club scene. I look at it is, growing up. It's the same thing every night that it isn't appealing anymore. Drinking was never anything i enjoyed and can't handle anyways. So i think those friends aren't really expanding on what we can do as friends besides hanging out at the club since i've suggested doing other things besides going out to the club.

Monday, March 23, 2009

It's like a musical



Lily Allen's song titled 'Fuck You' totally describes how i've been feeling these past few days, so i'm enjoying this song even more now that i can relate to it. Hope you enjoy it too :]

I'm on Spring Break

Spring Break is usually supposed to be great and relaxing, it's pretty much hell for me. I'd rather be in school so i don't have to be at home all day.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

I like and i also hate being Asian.

I like my ethnicity there are things about my family or the culture that i hate though.

Maybe it's just my family, but from stories of other people's families as well, i find Asians to be extremely judgmental. Which is why i've always kept my friends separate from my family.

My Aunt said "Why did you choose such gay (feminine) friends? You should have normal friends."

This is why...i don't like spending time with the family, i'm pretty much a black sheep. And i'm not out to them either. I can't imagine how that would be like.

ANOTHER INCIDENT!

My aunt saw my red gingham print button up in the hamper and asked if it was my shirt.
She asked why i bought it, was it because i thought it looked nice. and then proceeded to ask why i bought a red shirt.

apparently guys aren't suppose to wear red.

she's gonna psychotic and i dont want to hear anything that comes out of her fucking mouth.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Ewwie

When i was stopped at the traffic light, i saw a spider on my driver side window and i thought it was outside so i flicked it, and it was on the INSIDE!!!!! it started falling and i started to scream and try to kill it, but at the same time i was freaking out.

Monday, March 16, 2009

My shoes came in


So i ordered the Men's Bass Layton shoes. I don't like them, it was hard getting my foot into the shoe, and it was a little big on me, it also felt like i was wearing girl shoes. So i'm going to return these. I'll probably end up getting oxfords, and boat shoes :]

Friday, March 13, 2009

i think

i feel lost, unmotivated, confused with no passion or direction at the moment

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Pizookie

I was feeling bored, and decided to have dessert in the morning. This is my failed attempt at making BJ's Pizookie. The cookie hardened too quickly for me to enjoy the soft warm cookie and the cold ice cream.

I generally dislike people part 2

My dad is an asshole too.

The end.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Shoes

I can't decide which pair of Bass shoes i want to get, they're so different. Please share your opinions Thank you.

1. Men's Bass Layton



2. Men's Bass Larson

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I generally dislike people

All my life i've encountered people who do stuff towards me for no reason at all, and i'm sure it goes for everyone too, but it feels as though it's occurred to me all the time. What really pissed me off on monday was when i was on the phone with my friend, waiting at the corner to cross the street, a black guy stands next to me, and begins to mimic what i was saying while looking at me. It wasn't the fact that he copied what i said, but he copied how i speak, and he did it twice.

I just don't get why people feel the need to do something like that. If i knew the person i wouldn't really care, probably bitch them out maybe, but the reason he was a stranger and didn't know me. People are just stupid, and that is why i generally don't like people.

When i was younger, i was picked on by my cousins. I had a best friend in 3rd grade and i was ditched by him in 6th grade for a whole year and hung out with a new kid, and that whole year the new kid picked on me, stole my calculater and lied about not having it when i saw it in his desk. Then towards the end of 6th grade my best friend came back. I was picked on in middle school, and also high school.

So yea, that is why i look like a bitch or as though i'm mad, because i don't want to deal with stupid people. i know its not a great way to live, but it works for me so far. people have mentioned that i do look mad when i'm alone...there's just no reason to smile or be joyous when you're alone.

I'm not that mean, if you get to know me...well maybe a little, since it's all i've encountered.

i'm not mad anymore, just annoyed. :]