Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
I am so pissed! i don't think my grade for Art History is correct, after all she did email me about not receiving sufficient papers from me, she never even responded back. I just shot her another email asking if she received my emails with the actual points i received on ALL four papers including a soft copy of my fifth paper.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
On top of that, i met a boy through the group and we've been taking for about 3 weeks now. We both seem to be in to each other and want to get to know more of each other and see where this goes. I also like the pace we're going at, it's nice and slow, unlike the other past relationships where everything went by so quickly.
I don't know how everything will work out, because he lives in San Francisco and I live in the easy bay. so i'll be doing a lot of driving. I guess if i really like him and want to see him the drive won't be an issue.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
i feel as though i'm getting mixed signals from this guy because of his one worded responses
for example, through texts:
me: i'm leaving now.
me: see you soon.
me: are you going to (event) tomorrow?
me: i might go
maybe i'm just looking into it way too much.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
The piece is titled 'Army of Ants' our assignment was to create a visual pun using our chosen words. A group of ants is called an Army of ants, but what if these ants were in the navy, would they still be called an army of ants or will they be a navy of ants? I purposely mixed the fabrics together to make the ants pop and have a rugged look as well as a cute animated feel to them.
Found fabrics were used, hand/machine sewing was involved, and stuffed animals were harmed for their stuffing in the process of creating this piece.
I feel as though some of my friends failed me, i wasted my time sending out personalized text messages to my friends about the reception of my group art show i was part of to no avail either i got no responses or no show ups. I'm really glad for the few that did come though. I know some of them had other plans or have told me before hand that they weren't able to make it. Friends definitely do come and go i'll live and let go.
doing this art show definitely shows me that i really don't do work for anyone but myself. it would be really nice to showcase my work but putting so much work into it and not get any recognition from it doesn't help at all.
The school paper ran an article about our show and my piece made the front page as a headline to the article inside the newspaper, at least something good came out of it. Though my piece wasn't even mentioned in the article.
thanks to those who did make it to the show or have gone to see it while it was still up. I'm tearing the gallery down tomorrow.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I'm happy though, at least he was mature enough to handle it like an adult rather than create drama out of no where. I didn't want to be an ass and just stop talking to him, i would want someone to break it to me...even if it might hurt, i need to hear it so i can attempt to move forward from it.
Friday, October 16, 2009
NOTE: in part 2, somewhere in the middle a dog or cat makes a sound. it scared the shit out of me.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
He's big on making out, and i found it weird to be making out with him, i didn't like it.
The second date, i took BART up to San Francisco and we met up downtown after he got off work. We proceeded to take the bus towards Japan Town. We walked around went to a few stores and had sushi for dinner. We split the bill...which quickly tells me how things will be like in the future if there was going to be one.
I think i tried testing him to see how he'll react. By telling him about my problems and my flaws, but he didn't run away at all.
The next day he wanted to hang out again, so i went over to his place. we hung out in his room which he shared with his sister which threw me off completely and extremely awkward when we're cuddling and kissing while she's in the room. I ended up staying the night and i was not able to sleep at all. His bed was uncomfortable, the fan was on and he was kinda snoring.
he texts me everyday and i'm starting to feel smothered and annoyed lol
I definitely don't think it's the right time for me to be dating since school is so busy. Another thing is him being so clingy, i feel like he's becoming attached and falling for me way too fast. I think i need to end it soon.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Just completely ignore my previous post on Halloween costumes, i just thought of a new one the other day and i'm excited. It's cheap and i can wear it any other day...well not as an entire outfit.
But i'm planning on being a washed up Mickey Mouse Club member. The outfit will consist of mickey mouse ears, my fake nerdy glasses, short sleeve button up, bowtie, possibly suspenders, semi short shorts, knee high tube socks, and either my chucks or my hi-tops.
**photo credits belong to google, or if anyone specific, let me know, thanks
Monday, October 5, 2009
1) Donnie Darko
i think donnie's costume is too simple and the only people who will get it is people who love the movie. He wears a simple skeleton jumpsuit with a pair of chucks and a grey hoodie over it. it's fairly cheap though.
2) Paulie Bleeker
Paulie Bleeker on the other hand, i'll have to buy the socks, shorts, shirt, wrist/head bands and it'll be about $30. Quite expensive.
3) Max the wolf from Where the Wild Things Are
The Max costume will definitely be really time consuming, i don't think it'll be expensive just that i don't know how to sew with a machine, so either i'll have my aunt help me or i'll hand sew the entire thing...it's a death wish for sure. But it's really cute. A furry jump suit with a hood and ears, finger-less gloves and a tail. Plus whiskers and a gold crown.
what do you guys think?
Friday, September 11, 2009
Sunday, September 6, 2009
the one thing i notice with the filipino people i've met is that they are very committed to their partners. one guy we were talking to said before his boyfriend of 10 years, he was straight/bi and had a girlfriend of four years and even tried to have a baby together, how crazy that must be.
i kinda feel like they're lucky to have met someone they want to spend their life with...and i hope i'll find someone like that too.
Monday, August 31, 2009
As i was walking towards my car after class, there was two middle school looking ghetto boys, one was on his bike, the other was walking, and i see the boy on the bike mugging me and as i walked by he said something in that ghetto deep tone, and his friend started to laugh. i didn't care to look back nor say anything because i couldn't even understand what he said.
but it annoyed me because i'm wondering why he chose me to be the victim of his "cool-ness." is it because i'm asian? and short? maybe...
i really wanna just drop him off in the ghetto and see how cool and ghetto they'll act then.
i should have hit him off his bike.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Have you ever had to say goodbye to someone
despite how you felt about them?
I never really knew how hard it would be to do so. Feelings for them still linger but honestly they're not good for me. I have no idea why i kept up with them for so long, since I was a necessity to them. It was a one way street kind of relationship, where I was the only one who was stupid enough to fall for them. Even if they seem to be happy to be with you or based on the things they say. Seems like they're very skilled with their words to get what they want.
It is so much easier to just stop talking to someone and let this relationship die off on its own, rather then having to say goodbye to them. I woke up with a heavy feeling this morning, as if someone close to me had died. So i'm glad that school is starting next week, at least i'll have more important things to occupy my mind.
Until then...I will remain on the sidelines and continue admiring the boys from afar.
Sara Bareilles - Gravity
Love of Siam OST - Gun Lae Gun (Together)
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
from past history, i'm learning not to trust what people say to me. well, boys for that matter because a lot of them never follow through. so until their words are proven by their actions, i won't trust anyone.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
i think it's been about 3 weeks now since i've been trying this. running outside really is harder than running on a treadmill. i was totally winded the first time in a long time when i went out to run.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Luu's entry about a boy reminded me of a cute boy that i saw every morning for six weeks on my way to my summer class. I never had any reason or courage to just go up to the front desk and talk to him. But a week before class ended i really did have a question to ask him, but i ended up looking stupid because of my drying contacts and the fact that i lost my train of thought in the process.
Me: how do i uhhh....
(my contacts were drying so i was rubbing my eye, and probably looked stupid while doing so)
Me: transfer my units to another school?
Him: you need to fill out a request form for a transcript.
Me: oh...okay, thanks.
The next few days i tried to just make eye contact with him but it never worked. So i no longer see cute boy, and when i did have an encounter with him i looked stupid hahha
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
We went to our first underwear for July 4th.
Nearby was a national park, so we took a long hike through the red wood trees. We were definitely unprepared for this trip. We didn't bring the proper clothing and forgot some important things that luckily we didn't really need to survive. The only shoes i had was my sperry top sider boat shoes. So i ended up hiking through the forest in boat shoes lol. I looked ridiculous with my jeans tucked into them so my bare feet was not exposed to all the bugs.
Life, Love, Hope & Meat that pretty much sums it all up.
On our way back home from the trip we stopped by a nearby beach...the warning sign of dog crap is just straight to the point
Thursday, August 6, 2009
I'm just learning a lot in this complicated relationship thing...i can get pretty clingy, paranoid and a worry wart. So despite this hectic...so-called relationship...i am learning...to be a better future partner hahah.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
My birthday was a couple weeks ago. I feel as though as each year goes by...my birthday is not all that special anymore. But i still enjoy spending it with my friends and hanging out as if it was a typical day...except sometimes i get some special treatments, such as...not having to pay for dinner, and people are nice to me...lol not that people are mean to me on a daily basis. I'm 23 now, i can't wait to get a few years older though...i'm anticipating what my life will be like in the next few years.
I had work on my birthday but my boss wanted to have a company luncheon at Sonoma Chicken Coop...He surprised me with a birthday card. I guess it was a company lunch for my birthday? No idea. Then After work I hung around until it was time to meet up for dinner at the Original Krung Thai. Not the New Krung Thai which some people went to instead. It was just a nice chill dinner like how i prefer it to be followed by some delicious frozen yogurt afterwards.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
- Snagged from google.
After Thwany and Letopho has put in their 2 cents, i thought i should also say that their album is so good! I usually only find two or three songs off an album worthy of my ears but its so good and i've been listening to this album for about 2 weeks now and their entire album is worth the listen. It definitely keeps me calm and awake during my commutes to and from school.
I love Horan's new look. She's super chic with that short bob. Alex is lookin good as aways!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
I seem to do a lot of waiting and it's starting to get to me.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
He doesn't like kissing...if anything it's just a small kiss on the lips. I think that would bother me a lot.
But there are more pros than there are cons
Pros: Cute, funny, Similar taste in movies, likes to cuddle, likes food.
Cons: no make out sessions.
So would a strong connection with someone overlook the small cons? I now understand how some people despite seeming as though they're in a good relationship, can be affected by the little things.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
He texts me later on...
Him: Was that you who walked by my store?
Me: Yea it was me...
Him: Why didn't you stop by and say hi?
Me: I don't know...not sure if you wanted to see me or not.
Him: Of course I do.
Me: Oh, well i'll stop by next time i'm at the mall then.
As stated, the next time I went to the mall, I went in to his store to visit him. I was nervous and didn't know what to say besides the usual "hello" and "how are you doing?"
We began texting each other here and there, when I found out he broke up with his boyfriend...
Recently I mentioned that we should hang out sometime and get some Pho, because I knew it was his favorite and I havn't had it in awhile.
Fast forward to Wednesday...
I followed him to the Pho restaurant. Where we caught up on a lot of things that have occured within the year we lost touch.
From our future plans, what we've been up to since we last talked and whatever else that came to mind.
After dinner we went back to his place. We snuggled up in his twin sized bed, got comfortable in each others arms and watched 'Sex & The City: The Movie," which was really good. It felt as though we picked up where we left off in September. We cuddled, held hands and had small talk in between the movie.
I feel a great connection with him, and I know he's a really genuine guy. Even though we'll only be friends, i'll have to enjoy our time together while it lasts before he moves in 2 months.
I really missed him...because he was a good guy, and we connected really well. He just has the ability to make me smile and laugh.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
When my mentor mentioned these Merona Rocca BROWN WingTips on clearance at Target for 19.98/13.98, I knew I had to try and find me a pair. Wingtips usually run about $140 to $200 a pair for a good pair. I searched through three targets last week with no luck in finding me a pair of these in a 7. Until I decided to try two more targets today, low and behold i found a pair at the first target I went to. I felt like a found the winning prize in a scavenger hunt, it felt unreal. I tried them on and they fit pretty good, theres about half an inch of extra room. I just hope I don't look like i'm wearing clown shoes.
I went to another Target to see if they had another pair, but no luck. I'm ready to take these out for a day or night out, sockless of course! since summer is taking over, i can't remember the last time i've worn socks with my shoes.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
The Pink party was the first on our list, we ended up arriving way to early, the sun was still out, and me and my friend was stranded for the whole night. We stood in the middle of the street looking lost for two hours before we decided to grab some dinner and just chill at the hotel for the rest of the night.
We missed about an hour of the parade but it still went on for another two hours or so. We got bored and headed towards the civic center for the festivities.
The trio was supposed to dress up this year for pride, short shorts, knee high socks, and a baseball style Tee. Only two of us dressed up, because one of them flaked on us, and ditched us for his boyfriend. It was a waste of time running around with him trying to find his outfit, and he doesn't even wear it! But it was fun to dress up this year. We didn't really see much of anything besides aimlessly walking around, and sitting down for half the time in the grass. Didn't get to see or say hi to people i was expecting to see there. This year just wasn't as fun as the previous years.
Later that night, we had dinner at Joe's Crab Shack at the Pier. Everyone ordered a pot of sea food, while I ordered a breaded shrimp sandwich thing. They all got bibs, with silly messages on them written by our waitress. I was sad because i didn't get one myself, so i substituted one by using a napkin. The staff danced about every two hours just to heighten our experience as people dove into their food. They did a combination of the disco, some charlie brown, stomping around and spinning in circles.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
didnt realize it until i got home and looked at the receipt
i'm, such a dumbo
no wonder it felt so damn sluggish
i already gave it some implants ( a thicker sway bar)
when i think about it, i've upgraded it a lot
i gave her some new contacts (HIDS)
bought her a new bra (new underbrace)
widened up her anus (larger uncatted test pipe)
gave her a nose job so she could breathe better (intake)
and got her a body guard (my alarm)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
A guy across the street, called out to me, did the usual introductions, and shook hands.
He then asked me for money, which i denied of having. Then...he had the nerve to say...
"I bet you can put those lips to good use, i have a big dick."
I replied back with "uhhh....no." and began walking towards my car.
Who does that to someone they dont even know, seriously? people are major douches.
i burnt my thumbs while trying to move my car, due to the hot hot steering wheel under the hot hot sun :[
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Details Magazine's definition of douchebag hair might be a little different than how i interpret it...but they consider the "faux-hawks, carefully rendered spikes, grossly asymmetrical parts, tinted tips, and meticulously messed-up bed-heads makes it clear that we are living in the era of douchebag hair."
I just think there should be a limit to what you put your hair through. I bet it must've taken her an hour or two...to burn it with a hair straightener, than mold it into it's shape with thick gooey stiffening hair product that takes forever to get out in the shower.
I wish i got a photo of her from the front. But her hair kinda looked like one of Cher's hairstyles, but at least her's was a wig.
- if this photo belongs to you please let me know so i can properly credit you.
Friday, June 12, 2009
it's been over a week now that i havn't been able to sleep at my usual 12 a.m. bed time. i've brought the issue up to them before, and they just think i'm a complete self centered bitch who can't understand. when they're the ones who have no consideration for the fact that i'm trying to sleep, and whenever they want me to be quiet, i am very good at it. so thats why i'm frustrated because i'm considerate of others, but they're defnitely not.
Occasionally i like to purposely give them a taste of their own medicine, but then they get pissed off at me for doing it. so they should understand why i would be mad too right? nope. this is a constant cycle of repetitive annoyance.
and this is why i am so good at being a cold heartless bitch because of the people i have dealt with, thank you much!
oh, but i am also nice, to those deserving of it that is :]
i really hate bitching on a blog. but i just had to get this out.
Monday, June 1, 2009
This whole weekend i was in san jose, just hanging out with friend's and helping them move out. I hope we still hang out sometime...they're all leaving me since they've graduated already.
Then it was my friend's graduation, i gave him a candi lei, and watched him become a RN. Afterwards it was party time at his place, lots of drinking (not me of course) and hanging out.
On Saturday i got the call i've been waiting for. I got the internship yay!!! so i'll be pretty busy this summer with an internship, summer school and hanging with my boys.
In the next few weeks, San Jose Pride, San Francisco Pride, My Birthday Camping trip, more birthday's and parties to attend. I can't wait for all the outings i'll be attending.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
I'm done with finals yay! I check my grades on thursday.
It's frustrating trying to make plans to hang out with friends, and they flake or don't respond.
I had a job interview at a design firm for possible internship or freelance gigs. He said he'll call by friday, it's sunday. I think i failed. =/
Yesterday was two of my friend's graduations. I feel bad because i didn't go.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I'm not butt hurt over it, i'm just spilling out what i think right now. This will add another layer to my already built wall, thank you :]
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
After the guy left, my friend said he thought i was unfriendly. It made me wonder how i act when i first meet people, and maybe my shyness and fear of people come across more than i've thought. So maybe i should try being more "friendly" towards people. Funny how one encounter can change your actions.
But the one thing i can't do is be able to mingle and talk to people i don't know. I wouldn't know what to say or bring up into a conversation, instead there's silence and the end of a meeting.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Before he got out of my car, he said i can just leave or wait for him, so i said i'll just follow him.
He got out, slammed my door shut and walked away without saying thank you or any sort of gesture, i would certainly thank someone who did them a favor.
After a few minutes, i texted him and told him i was leaving. Hopefully as i drove away, i also left my feelings behind.
Why is it that i'm always after unrequited love, as J.T. has said.
I noticed that whenever i do date someone or a relationship forms, summer lovin' is what i have, which ends when august/September comes around. Only once was it never just a summer love.
Like Letopho said about liking someone who's straight, in the closet, or someone who doesnt even feel the same way about you, i should stop it and not let this happen again. Kinda hard to do so, but maybe i'll start liking someone who's more worthy of my time and feelings later on, as of now, i'll most likely continue liking someone who doesn't return the favor back, to keep myself busy on top of going to school :]
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
i was thinking of...
a murder of crows
an army of ants
but i don't know if those are visual puns, visual satire, bisociation, or visual merging.
during class i've thought of other words to play off of.
cockpit - as in a pit of penis' or maybe roosters?
redlight district - a district with actual red lights, not prostitutes
secondhand smoke - not cigarettes, but a secondhand on fire.
flower pot - a cooking pot with flowers in it
fairy tail - a fairy with a tail
firefly - a fly on fire
timeshare - sharing minutes/time
potbelly - a person with a pot on his belly
plastic surgery - doing procedures on plastic objects
not sure about these two though...
Monday, April 6, 2009
My two friends have been having boy problems and it makes me a bit happy that i don't have to deal with that mess too. It sucks how guy's are not up front with their feelings all the time, you would think since two guy's would understand each other better? Not at all, my friend was dating someone for three months, and he asks the boy where they're at, and the boy tells him that he's not ready for another relationship because he just got out of a six year relationship.
My other friend who's been hanging out with this guy for about a month now, he's met his family, friends but all they do is hang out at the guy's place. So he's not sure where they're going with this either.
Also hearing about other people going through break ups, bf's cheating confusing straight guys. Gay life is so complicated its like a never ending rollercoaster.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
This break came at the best time ever. I was overwhelmed with school, graphic design and life in general. Not that i've got my shit together fully, but i can say that it's helped me come to terms with things. I've realized that Graphic Design isn't where my heart is fully at, there are so many things i wanna dive into, which is probably why i'm not motivated or driven to do well in. The whole corporate type of work is definitely not for me, i've tried it, and its not working. I really enjoy the more hands on type of stuff, and it's always what i've wanted to do to begin with. So this summer i'll probably learn silk screening, develop my plushies and possibly do some painting.
Since there's so much i want to do or even try, thats where i've always gotten lost and confused. I have too many things i want to do that it's chaos in my mind, trying to narrow everything down to one specific thing.
Some of my friends feel as though i'm no fun anymore because i've lost interest in the club scene. I look at it is, growing up. It's the same thing every night that it isn't appealing anymore. Drinking was never anything i enjoyed and can't handle anyways. So i think those friends aren't really expanding on what we can do as friends besides hanging out at the club since i've suggested doing other things besides going out to the club.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Maybe it's just my family, but from stories of other people's families as well, i find Asians to be extremely judgmental. Which is why i've always kept my friends separate from my family.
My Aunt said "Why did you choose such gay (feminine) friends? You should have normal friends."
This is why...i don't like spending time with the family, i'm pretty much a black sheep. And i'm not out to them either. I can't imagine how that would be like.
My aunt saw my red gingham print button up in the hamper and asked if it was my shirt.
She asked why i bought it, was it because i thought it looked nice. and then proceeded to ask why i bought a red shirt.
apparently guys aren't suppose to wear red.
she's gonna psychotic and i dont want to hear anything that comes out of her fucking mouth.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
So i ordered the Men's Bass Layton shoes. I don't like them, it was hard getting my foot into the shoe, and it was a little big on me, it also felt like i was wearing girl shoes. So i'm going to return these. I'll probably end up getting oxfords, and boat shoes :]
Friday, March 13, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
I just don't get why people feel the need to do something like that. If i knew the person i wouldn't really care, probably bitch them out maybe, but the reason he was a stranger and didn't know me. People are just stupid, and that is why i generally don't like people.
When i was younger, i was picked on by my cousins. I had a best friend in 3rd grade and i was ditched by him in 6th grade for a whole year and hung out with a new kid, and that whole year the new kid picked on me, stole my calculater and lied about not having it when i saw it in his desk. Then towards the end of 6th grade my best friend came back. I was picked on in middle school, and also high school.
So yea, that is why i look like a bitch or as though i'm mad, because i don't want to deal with stupid people. i know its not a great way to live, but it works for me so far. people have mentioned that i do look mad when i'm alone...there's just no reason to smile or be joyous when you're alone.
I'm not that mean, if you get to know me...well maybe a little, since it's all i've encountered.
i'm not mad anymore, just annoyed. :]
Monday, February 23, 2009
I went to Coyote Hills Regional Park on friday to take pictures.
Now people can find where the park is and stalk me if they wanted to =P
Sorry i don't have any exciting stories to provide with the photos.
I've been looking at phones online to buy, no such luck yet.
I'm also waiting for march to arrive so i can buy shoes.
I'm still alive if anyone was wondering....probably no one.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
1. Blogger 1 posts a question on their blog.
2. The first person to comment on said Blogger's post needs to direct readers to their blog, and then becomes Blogger 2.
3. Blogger 2 answers Blogger 1's question on his/her own blog (so Blogger 2's blog).
4. Blogger 2 posts a question on his/her blog.
5. And then the new Blogger repeats step 1-4.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
like i have gas or something
i think thats it
tum tum tum tum
or pepcid AC
ur not supposed to have heart burn
u aint white
K: maybe your heart is burning for white boy
K: dont ew
u want him
me: hhaha that's the cheesiest thing ever
K: and holds you tight
when he sleeps
me: no he actually doesn't hold me tight
K: for fear he'd suffocate you thats why
K: but he holds you (once in a while)
me: you sound like you were watching or something
K: i know how these things work
when you sleep together
you dont just turn away from each other
the whole night and sleep thats for when you're 40
Monday, January 12, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
"How is it going"
I was confused because I didn't recognize the number. So i texted back...
"Going good. Who is this btw sorry don't recognize this number"
"*insert name here* a4a we chat b4"
My mind immediately goes to JT the guy I went on a date with, who I saw at the club, and later told me he had a boyfriend now.
"Oh yea sorry. whats up"
"lol i see. i'm still in bed so tired"
"2morow is ok u relax n take it easy text me your profile name again"
"tomorrow is ok? what's tomorrow? i'm confused"
"if u wanna meet?"
"What happened to the bf"
"Single not looking u"
"What did you want to do?"
--no response so i text again--
"Just confused, what happened? are you ok?"
"hm is you ok?"
"Yeah when can we meet? where are you?"
"Im in SJ right now. Maybe later?"
"Ok see you soon"
"Okay, What did you want to do?"
His response back, had me even more confused because I thought he had a boyfriend, and there was no way I was gonna mess around with him after what happened the first time.
"Lol hang out? watch a movie? idk"
"Okay, where shall we meet?"
So the rest of the messages I kept thinking it was the JT i went on a date with.
Later after running my quick errands, i decided to call him, since he was slow in responding back. JT answers after several rings...
"Nothing, just finished some errands, what about you?"
"blah blah blah"
"Do you still want to hang out?"
blah blah blah
"Can you text me directions from SJ to your place"
So we hung out today, nothing out of the ordinary. I arrived at his place, and then he told me we're gonna go to the Silicon Valley Auto show, and I was JUST in SJ.
After the show, we were hungry so we went to this Indian Buffet. On the car ride we just talked about guys and guy issues.
During dinner we talked, and he brought this up in the conversation...
"I didn't think i'd hear from you again?"
"Because I thought you were mad at me, when I told you I have a Boyfriend now"
"Oh...I was...but i'm over it now"
Then this is when the conversation starts getting wierd...
I told him that he texted me this morning, and he argues his point and said that he never texted me today and that he was surprised I was calling him and wasn't sure if he wanted to answer the phone, which is why it took him so long to answer it.
So I checked my phone and I realized that I had two guys with the same name in my phone, and I made a silly mistake and I immediately changed one of the guy's names so that won't happen again.
The night ended up being wierd, funny, and interesting.
We ended the night back at his place, finished up the movie MAMA MIA and then I left afterwards.
So i accidently flaked on this other guy without knowing it. But my day went rather well anyways, and JT didn't seem to mind at all, he even thought it was funny.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
"You can come in and change." She replied.
The guy appeared, and didn't look too happy to see me. But he said I can change but I had to leave. His apartment looked completely different than how it really does appear. The complex looks rundown, his actual apartment has a different set up. His bed was now in the living room, when i walked into his bedroom, the door couldn't close because there was 4-5 twin sized beds and two guys were sleeping. The guy was mad because I could have woken them up. So I quickly got dressed, thanked him and left.
On the way to lunch I received a text message from Jin
"I can go :(" (don't know why he added the sad face though)
I went to get clams and oysters for lunch and i rode my bike across the street struggling with a plate of rolling clams and oysters. I had to jump off my bike to save my lunch, which caused one of my clams to fall to the ground. I ran across the street, and forgot my bike on the other side. When I was waiting to cross the street to get my bike, I saw a black guy pick it up, and rode it across the street and rode off with it. I saw another guy on a bike go after him. Then I start running after him, and I the only way I could stop him was throw my food at him. So i'm running and throwing my clams and oysters at the guy who stole my bike, and I've only missed him by a few inches, when he finally decides to stop. The black guy was surprised I chased after him.
"Are you going to keep your hair short, or grow it out like me?" (the black guy asked me)
"Keep it short"
The guy that chased after the black guy came over, gave me a hug and kissed me on the cheek. I looked up and he looked like the guy I wrote about in my last two entries, only he had his ears pierced.
"I'll give you a call after dinner" I told him before I rode off with my bike.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
I really am a woman in that sense, according to my friend.
"I texted him Saturday, and he hasn't texted me back. So it's his turn to text me."
"You know, you're like a female. Only girls do that."
"Yeah i guess, but i'm trying not to be clingy, I'll give it a few days and text him again"
I'm a Cancer, and i really am what a Cancer is described to be. I'm emotional, i hide in my shell, the cancer is a water sign and it is a feminine energy.
I worry too much, my gut lied to me this time and i was prepared to move on and be okay like I always am.
We'll just have to see how things go.
Monday, January 5, 2009
It was early friday morning, and i arrived at his place a little before 2.
As I was walking to the front door, I see him walking out, with his dog, doing the usual routine of taking the dog out to do it's business.
There was some small talk as usual...
"How was work?"
"blah blah blah"
Afterwards we went inside, up the elevator, down the hall to his apartment.
I took off my shoes as usual, and went straight to his bedroom to set my stuff down.
We hung out as usual...watched tv, made small talk, then went to bed...
This time was different though...
"What have you been doing on break?"
"Nothing, just hanging out, i've been running though."
"Yea, i need to start on that too..."
blah blah blah
"I need to start studying graphic design"
"I been meaning to read more too."
I sat on his bed waiting, not sure what he had planned. After he got out of the bathroom, he walked into the living room, and started his laptop up.
So i sat next to him...
"I'm gonna finish up this episode of Inuyasha"
"Okay, it finally finished downloading?"
blah blah blah...
"Do you watch this?"
He began to explain to me about the characters...
we watched the rest of the episode, and as i looked around his apartment i noticed something new, leaning against a wall.
He had a Family Guy poster now, but i never brought that up.
It was silent for the most part while he finished watching his anime...
once it was finished...
"Lets go to bed"
I didn't even say good night this time...
we both climbed into bed and a few minutes pass, until he puts his arm around me, and i try to get closer to him. After awhile, he lets go, and gets comfortable as he tried to go to sleep, and so did i.
The next morning, he rolled over to my side, and he rubbed my stomach.
He got out of bed, got dressed and went out into the living room.
It was about 12:00 in the afternoon by then.
I took that as my queue, i changed into my jeans, went to wash up, grab my things and headed outside.
He came over to me, as i said Bye.
"okay, have a good day"
I texted him the next day...(Saturday)
"Hey, it was good seeing you, have a good day"
no reply yet...i hope this won't be the last time i see him.
Sometimes i get these feelings, that tell me things...maybe they tell me a little too late though.
I should try and communicate with him more, if i have the chance to see him again that is.
Those feelings...lead to my dream i had this morning...
It didn't take place at his place...not sure where...because he only has one bedroom. But i was there, and i found a lot of stuff that i forgot, my jeans, phone etc. and he was showing me these stuffed animals for some reason...